I confess I like this deathcab for cutie song... which is more of a statement
um
well, Ive got lots to confess

well I dont think ill fail anw tomorrow (or so I hope) but the day after that Ill fail and the day after the day maybe not but the day after the day after the day of tomorrow, there Ill fail for sure.

:wack: Why will you fail?

because I find it hard to learn 50 pages of maatschapijleer by heart and I still can't use my ... eh... rekkenmachine for maths

I confess that I have a problem with eating food that makes me want to vomit. It's so good at the time and then it's like...ugh...

Such as subway honey mustard sauce. They put way too much on and it's so vinegary that it makes me sick. But I insist on getting it on my sub every time. And then I get a small donut with the hopes that will calm my stomach but it makes me ever more stuffed and nauseous.

I guess the first step to solving a probelm is admiting you have a problem...

I confess that I suck at giving compliments sometimes.

I confess that I do that with dairy products. I'm lactose intolerant and it makes me sick to the stomach but I do it anyway. Like with cereal...how can you not have milk? And no child should grow up without ice-cream right? So I eat it, then I end up hunched over the toilet a couple of hours later
It's my own fault I guess

I do that too. I still eat gummy bears, chocolate or cheese sometimes although I know it makes me stomach go all wrong. I've given up on yoghurt and stuff though (mostly )

So I'm not the old dummy who does this

I skipped school

I still have calculus homework to do.

You sneak!

I confess that... hmn.. I suck at talking to people, I have some social anxiety problems or something. school just sucked alot after I got in a "fight" with my best friend, after which she hasn't spoken a word to me, and for awhile it was like all my friends took her side. was over 7 months ago and she still hasnt spoken to me , but I'm alright with most of the others, and I've made a few other friends. Still, as soon as I get ready for school, I can feel anxiety coming a bit, I tend to sweat, get nervous feeling and sometimes shaky. Pretty much anywhere other than school I'm alright though, and I think I'm getting better.

hahah. I also can't talk on the phone, like, at all. Leaving messages on answering machines especially.

I can't either. I was at the bank because I had lost my bankcard and this woman made me call someone on the phone and I felt really uncomfortable. not only calling but answering the phone as well.

I just feel stupid if I phone people. Like... I phoned this hotel and... I just feel so... As if I wasn't good enough to phone them, as if I still needed practise in phoning people.

Exactly, I feel very stupid and vulnerable. Worse than just talking to someone in person although there you have "less protection", you can't hang up. Still, maybe it's that you have to think about your words so much, no body language and all. No, I'm rambling, I don't think so.

Well... I feel non-professional even if I go to the bank, but there it is still easier because... Yeah, I mean, if you can use body language and if you actually see the person in front of you, you don't have to think...

Wait, I think you're right. What does body language help you? I mean, it depends on how you put it into words. My mother hates people who are like just putting people down, like... when you forget your ticket for the underground, ha, this woman was so like "Uh, you did something wrong. You just have to pay 40 euros, but I think you should be punished more" or some shit like that. I just bought the wrong ticket, yeah? Man... It was a stupid mistake of mine. And that's what I really don't like about myself.

I can be so confused and then I don't understand ANYTHING anymore. People get annoyed, but would you like to be in my position, huh? Shut up and leave me alone. YOU don't have to tell me that I can't express myself. But, well... I guess that's the way it is. *sigh*

Anyway, we were talking about calling people.

I can talk to people on the phone, but I am so unsure what to do.

Sorry mother, but... Doesn't work, even if I am not lazy.

Yeah, my mom thought it was lazyness for a long time. Or just simple shyness and thought it would help just letting me call ... but it didn't.
I confess sometimes it annoys me how I don't have real friends here (or the two people I would consider calling friends I see two times a week... and then I think about what we could do outside of school and I can't think of one thing).

Yeah, I know.

Duh, Louise is so like... going out and stuff. She is nice talking to sometomes, but I think she doesn't really like me.

Pfff... And Alice was offended this morning because I gave her a really ugly glance. I didn't even mean to. And then she was like "Molly!" and she had to tell her, they are very close, you know. I mean, that's nice, but I just hate these girl couples, always together and when you say something bad to one of them, you have trouble with the other girl as well.

I've always been the third person with these extreme best friends.

One thing I'm looking forward to in Berlin.

Oh, I only know saw it's Blur!

What? Oh.

Haha, yeah, I was like "WTF?". I found it on Google, yeah.

It's cute though... althought it reminds me of Phantom Planet (why although?).

i confess today a friend and i bought a tub of ice cream and ate in the back of kmart



and then the lady told us to stop eating it

so we gigled and ran away

I confess that I suck at maths

I also confess that I'm always putting my homework off to the last minute

Homework is punishment.

I forgot to do my English homework.....

I confess that I questioned my love for someone.

I confess I gave in listening to the new album when I said I was going to wait.


WELL COME ON. I WAS PRATICALLY PEEING MY PANTS LIKE 2 MONTHS AGO I COULDNT HELP IT.



And I dont know what I think of it yet.
Ill have to listen to it like 5 times to have it sink in.
Like right now, I dont even remember how they go or what I listened to since I have a very shallow memory.

I confess i wasted alot of my mums ink she needs for uni printing off pictures of alan rickman
and i confess im horrible to the person i love sometimes on purpose and i don't know why

Yeah, I know what you mean. That happens to people here in the boarding house and also to my friends. Sometimes I just am not interested and I think that that is a bad charcteristic. But... I've got to live with it and do the best I can, even though some people don't appreciate it.

I confess that I dig guys who have feminine features.

Long hair, pale (The snow white kind ), er...

Youth, yeah.

I love YOUTH! Man! Sometimes the youth is even younger than I am.

I confess that, ever since the accident, I can't lok at buiscuts the same way again.

Why?

I confess that I am so lucky, having watched the first Oasis interview on TV ever and it was great. I have watched the "Definitely Maybe" DVD of Ihatemusic, but that doesn' count. Although it is awesome.

No, buscuits are hilarious. I have a pic of one that I destryoed during lunch yesterday.

POST????

What do you know?

I've got to go, my father wants to go on now. Bye bye.

I'm gonna go unpack my luggage.

I can't, I left the installation disc at home....maybe next week, or whenever I'm at my stepdad's again....


Sorry


Bye!

I threw food away

LOL

He's not.


Oh yeah, one of my usual sins as well. I shouldn't do it.

How are you, by the way?

I'm ok. I still need water, mhm, have been thirsty for five hours now.

But he is not, really. Well, I haven't met him, but...

Several people who have met him say that he's friendly.


Then drink water.

I think I'm addicted to food.....or I just can't refuse an offer to eaat, even if I've already eaten...........even if I'm not offered it, I'll still og in the kitchen for snacks when my mum's not home. Even when she is sometimes. I need to stop this or I'll get fat.

You believe him?


I do that. And... Well, I've always done it. Don't worry, you can't be as bad as I am.

Who else said that?!

No. I know he's not an asshole.

Well, I BELIEVE.

How are you today?

Awwww.

I am fine, thank you.