very cold....

*shivers*

Highly paranoid..

I hate having OCD.. I always get all freaked out, about everything.. Like, that one time I told you guys, I went into my room, and I was really tired, but I THOUGHT I was tired, because there was carbon monoxide, in my room, and if I fell asleep, I would die.. So, I stayed up till about 3 or 4 in the morning, then I realized, if I was going to fall aslpeep and die from carbon monoxide, I would have done it, already, because I was in there for a few hours.. So I finally went to sleep, though I wasted like 5 or 6 hours of sleep..)

WELL, right now..
I bought Sesame Street books, for my cousin, from my moms friend, who got them from a thrift store.. Well, I was looking at them, and then I thought "I wonder who had these before me..? " And then I started thinking about getting diseases, so I got all freaked out.. And I still am paranoid about it.. Like, I think the books are covered in aids, or something, so I washed my hands for like a half an hour, and washed a cut on my arm in paroxide, and cleaned my mouth in paroxide (in case I got any contamination in there, or something.. I dont know.. lol.. And they say on the label you can do it.)

So, I got all paranoid, and I wouldnt swallow my own saliva, in case is had aids in it, like.. maybe the paroxide didnt really clean it.. And I still kind of really arent.. I'm still kind of cautious about it..

I HATE having OCD.. It wastes my life. For the carbon monoxide thing, I lost like 5 or 6 hours, and just now I wasted about 3 hours, and counting.. Except, I'm also on the computer now, to try to side-track me from that.. So its not really outnting, anymore.. So, yeah.. like 3 hours.. But my point is, I hate it, and it wastes my life.

aw, shayla. i wish something as simple as a smilie hug could make you feel better, but i know it doesn't. i can't imagine what you're going thru, but i can see that you coming on here and talking about it with us is a positive step in the right direction. like you said, it can side-track your thoughts. anytime you feel yourself being overcome with those unreasonable thoughts (carbon monoxide, aids, and such) try to do something different, like come online, so you can refocus your behavior on something else. i'm certainly not a doctor, so i'm not saying this will automatically work, just a friend trying to help you out.

Thankyou, Jen.

It doesn't matter that you can't imagine what I'm going through, because you [i}understand[/i], and thats more important, I think. So, Thanks.

And, yeah.. I defintly try to find things to side-track myself.. Like, during the Carbon Monoxide, thing, I just drew, and now I'm getting on the computer. Thanks always for being understanding, and considerate of what I'm going through.

Nervous

still cold....

my fingers are almost numb

Why are you so cold..?

i'm highly confused .....but it's pretty normal i think

ummmm, the weather?

it's really cold...

haha.. It's cold here, too, I guess.. It's been snowing all day.. I went out there for a little bit, though, and it wasn't even that cold, though..

But I don't have to go to school today.

lucky you....

I'm glad my semester's over, so I can just stay at home.....

Sick i threw up on saturday night

Neev.

Everybody´s getting sick....

highly improved. this is the best i've felt in a month.

*damn mono*

yay,

ah good jen i am glad you are feeling better


and kira it was a dodgy chinese and some bad whiskey that caused me to be sick

I feel nice, and it has nothing to do with my birthday

Highly hyper and excited..when i shouldnt be cuz i should be in bed.

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Highly worried.

highly concerned that shayla is highly worried.


and thanks for the well wishes, mo and neev.

Bloody hell, my throat is kinda sore!

you sick?

i dont wanna goooooooooooooooo

i would love to stay longer then just 30 minutes. oh man

Bisexual

what you feel bisexual???


btw i really have to go in 5 minutes i had to stay a bit longer today

long story dude...

but i got ya good

i wanna know everything about it, the next time we talk

coolio i will let you know

I feel..

Highly mixed

^ not highly evolved?

Umm..

I'm not even sure what evolved means??

that feelin that you get when you have a really stingy throat!

highly pissed off... Men suck...

They really do

I feel goooood, really good. I got all A's on my intertim

^^^^well done

Yesterday I was sick, but I feel better, today.

I feel highly neutral.

highly evolved


really...

Annoyed. My website is down and I don't know why.

sick..

:c

Hnorey

highly hungry

highly clean and excited.

Highly Hyped

highly hungry))

I am on holiday !!!! YEAH !

highly rarrish mehish

highly in the mood for speaking jibberish!!!and i cant even spell the damn word.haha

lOl that's too funny but...i knew it

back to topic i'm highly happy (christmas holidays) and highly hungry at the same time lOl